Autokabalesis

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Autokabalesis

when she hits the ground will you believe it 
this shit has not been hidden like a secret 
shes been openly grieving 
but its however you perceive it 
and seriously
your perception just feeds it 

feeds the hurt shes tried to speak in 
but theres no point speaking her demons 
if it aint gonna treat it 
for real she feels like it aint gonna heal shit 

its just repeating the same fucking reason 
she doesnt know what this disease is 
her brains broken
she swears she cant fucking feel shit 
she cant feel any other emotion except for hatred of life 
an its just dreams and schemes to help relieve this 
instead of crying 

if this is the cost of living is there a discount on dying 
cos she can only see prices rising 
shes disguised it 
despite it slicing and driving a knife in her thigh 
an chastising her for just being alive 
so she'll take high rises as her license 
brown eyes with a red iris 
this might be the last night they will have life in 
so fuck the clinical wording wrapped around her crisis 
tomorrow can keep making promises 
but it cant tell her life wont always be like this

Autokabalesis 
now everybody learns her value 
while theyre pricing up whose the grief is 
lets see how they find devotion of lonliness 
when theres noone to name left 
Autokabalesis

she hides the pain under pending appeal 
shit sounds official till the safety net fails 
they gave the fall a label
put the label in Latin 
like naming the exit means they know what happened 

honestly at this point you can pretend you care 
but she'll ration the truth 
everyone wants “im fine”
cos noone can carry the proof 
cos breathing is a burden
not a reason to stay and still lose 
and surviving a night aint the same as surviving the day 
as a second best excuse 

so she steps with her thoughts to the edge and lets it pass through her feet 
strip the error from terror to see the trap underneath 
fuck the forms
fuck the wait
fuck the fake how do you feel 
fuck the fact that you think her sufferings only true if a doctor says its real 

tomorrow keeps making offers but all its terms come from shredding blood with steel 
but raging waters aint where she wants to spill 
she doesnt wanna fill the [gunshot] to the top with the **** again 
cos she doesnt have the stomach to down the vodka on the cupboard to ****
so tonight shes writing it as plainly as possible
cos its getting really real 

one one six one two three kind of real

Autokabalesis 
now everybody learns her value 
while theyre pricing up whose the grief is 
lets see how they find devotion of lonliness 
when theres noone to name left 
Autokabalesis

she just wants her brain to be quiet for a minute 
she cant even sleep without their horrid image in it 
she cant even dream cos that fucking twatty bastard cunt keeps turning up in it 
soon as her eyes shut, every detail of desire develops 
same fucking face in the dark like her skull fucking held it 
her heart remembers the warning 
her legs remeber the walking 
while the bleeding was pouring 
so by the time it reaches through the morning to evening shes leaving 
shes at a point where even harmless people get mistaken with dangerous feelings 
she just needs them gone from this world before she leaves 
cos she knows their waiting 
wainting for the day they know her spots vacant

Autokabalesis 
now everybody learns her value while theyre pricing up whose the grief is 
lets see how they find devotion of lonliness when theres noone to name left 
Autokabalesis

she wakes every morning with their name sitting on the edge of her tongue 
like hatred hates their face and refuses to run 
seems like the only true solution is buying a **** 
blast a bolt of lightning led through the night for fun 
distrobuting their conclusion with zero dilution 
so for the sake of the netflix movie 
the moment she sees them is the moment the **** begun call it a confused illusion all you want 
she needs one night where her head doesnt screen them 
one fucking hour where the blood in her brain doesnt feed them 

she just wants her messed up mind to be quiet a minute 

not that it'd listen
..
but
would you?

Autokabalesis 
now everybody learns her value while theyre pricing up whose the grief is 
lets see how they find devotion of lonliness when theres noone to name left 
Autokabalesis

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