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I know, I know, but listen, dont you dare hang up on me I cant get to Mum, I cant get there, and I can barely breathe the girls keep asking why they cant just go and live their normal day and Im standing here lying through my teeth, am I meant to know what to say are you inside Hows your signal Can you hear me clearly at all is Mo with you, or is he sat pretending hes not scared, of course have you spoken to Sarah at all, tell her Ive been trying to call tell her Im trying Tell her Im sorry Tell her Ill get through and Id be there if I could fuck, I hate this feeling Im holding in me when Im trying to keep good but it feels like the worlds telling me its not enough and to try harder to keep up I keep looking out the kitchen window like the sky might change its mind and hope might turn up in your taxi light that tries to save us just in time, but theres nothing moving, nothings right, nothing we can do, and nothing and ... and ... and I ... I am so fucking frightened that Ill never get to see you again no, dont tell me to calm down, Im calm enough to know its the end Ive got the girls by the stairs asking for the life they had the boys want to go school, Al wants the shops, Hol wants her boyfriend back, on the scene and all I have to say is “not today” but I dont have it in me to explain what it means no, I havent told them everything Where would I even start the boys still think the weeks been cancelled, they dont know its been pulled apart I know I need to tell them, I just really dont have the heart yeah, I know, I know hes fine, hes checking on Dale again outside on the phone dale never watches the news and is probably clueless, I know hes scared of leaving him too, I know, theyre cute Hes doing lists in his head that are doing my head in and Im wrestlin just to stop myself from crackin at him Water, candles, coats, shoes, gloves, hats, he keeps forgetting why he walked in, why he walked back, and just stops and just stands there just staring at me like hes watching the time pass I just need him to know I love him, I know, I know he knows, but you know, I know you feel the same way about Mo, you know but I dont let him know that I see him there no, no, Im here Im here I can hear you it just dipped for a second, I thought Id lost you just keep talking Say anything at all tell me what room youre in, tell me what you can see no dont go, dont dont go on me now please dont disappear say something stupid if you have to I just need to know youre there put your phone up to the window and let me see the street outside I just need Facetime and firelights please let me see whats left of life I just need Facetime and firelights dont go on me now, please dont go can you hear me thank God Thank God, Ive been trying you for ages are the kids alright Are they with you I know, Ive been doing the same, an Hows he doing Is he doing that thing where he goes quiet and starts pretending hes just checking something upstairs yeah Yeah hes doing that here too... huh, men are you in the kitchen course you are let me guess, youre making one of your little posh boards, arent you charcuterie at the end of world very you, 2 bit Very on brand no, dont start, I was being stupid Im allowed to laugh or Ill fall apart youre the posh one Thats literally your job and your playing your part have you heard from Mum and Dad no, I know I know you think theyre making too much of it on the news but theyre not well theyll be panicking about us then pretending theyre only panicking about the parrot and Im trying not to spiral, but I swear Sarah Im spiralling I keep thinking there must be something Im meant to do some magic mum thing, some plan I missed in the group chat and unless youve got a spare diamond encrusted bunker hidden inside your fancy crackers Im fresh out of ideas no, dont laugh like that, youll start me off and I cant handle that and ... and ... and I ... I am so fucking frightened that Ill never get to see you again no, dont tell me to calm down, Im calm enough to know its the end and listen... lets say you get hit, but I dont... can I come and collect your perfumes I mean, theyre just gonna go to waste if not no, shut up, Im joking Im joking because Im frightened I am so fucking frightened that Ill never get to see you again no, dont tell me to calm down Im calm enough to know when somethings wrong Im trying my best with everything in my chest to sound normal so nobody notices Im hanging by a thread dont go on me now please dont disappear say something stupid if you have to I just need to know youre there put your phone up to the window and let me see the street outside I just need Facetime and firelights please let me see whats left of life I just need Facetime and firelights dont go on me now, please dont go © 2026 Hotwife of Pi. All rights reserved. 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