Smoke & Lies

Lyrics

Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies
Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies
Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies while Im livin on borrowed time that causes these bloodshot eyes but I dont feel like Im fallin this time Im tryin but I aint flyin neither an for some reason Im sat in the same spot just panickin bout my breathin

swear Im stuck in a spiral
swear Im stuck in a spiral with my body screamin an my mind loopin
swear Im stuck in a spiral with my body screamin an my mind loopin an leapin it an it hit a nerve an locked a pause button down deep in it
an Im tryna find a reason for the static in my structure but the signal keeps leavin it an the silence.... its a fuckin lie, it aint silent, its just loud in a language I cant read in its like theres a message in the moment but every time I nearly reed it I stop believin it an the silence keeps lying through its teeth as if there aint something breathin in it like this body aint got a pulse pulsin blood that still got old versions of me stood bleedin in it an the devil dont remember every night I sat there clearly kneelin in it

Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies

someones gonna need to put a little jesus in me as I wrap a rizla round relief cos it tells me theres a whole life of freedom in it an I hate that I hear it let alone that some weak part of me still sees meaning in it
I lit a match on the north sea an thought Id find warmth if I keep leanin in it but the fire dont love me it just likes how I disappear when Im feedin it in the same way the high never healed me but just taught the hurt to sleep a minute

Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies
Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies

Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies while Im livin on borrowed time that causes these bloodshot eyes but I dont feel like Im fallin this time Im tryin but I aint flyin neither an for some reason Im sat in the same spot just panickin bout my breathin

I aint runnin from the pain now that the pains sat with me
cross legged in the corner like it paid half the rent this week but dont remember what I had to go through to get through last week while feelin this weak like last Monday didnt put its hands on me
I was weak last week but Im weaker this week been speaking through my teeth cos my chest wont speak an my tongue tries to bargain with me tellin me Im livin off escapes with expiry dates
tiny fake breaks in a penny grinder rizla flame
anything to put a soft edge round the serrated blade of the day or to make my own name sound further away or at the very least turn the volume down on the parts of me I hate cos the high dont love me the dickhead just learnt where I ached then tries to charge interest when the drugs come late

Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies
Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies

Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies while Im livin on borrowed time that causes these bloodshot eyes but I dont feel like Im fallin this time Im tryin but I aint flyin neither an for some reason Im sat in the same spot just panickin bout my breathin

Ive been kept alive
Ive been kept alive
Ive been kept alive
Ive been kept alive
Ive been kept alive by smoke an lies



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